fantasy

someday somewhere....
well i wonder how far a dream can be real?!
i dream a lot & a lot. some realistic n some full of fantasy. when i think of it, age has nothing to do with our dreams, you know. i like dreaming of silly stuff, like that of a fairy tale...hoping that someday it will all come true-somehow anyhow. whatever it is my feet is firmly grounded but i still i am reaching out for the stars. who knows, i may end up floating in the arms of the rainbow or maybe drifting on along with the cloud. or simply, i may be sitting on the zenith of the tallest mountain or surfing through the  wild bizarre wind. this is fun...dream gives me a break from the mundane chores of everyday. life is precious...so are my dreams!

...end with a draw

many a question swarm in my head, looking for an answer somewhere from my life-long exerience. but how do you find answer to those questions for which you dont have any kind of experience?i am in a dilemma now, i thought that i knew myself quite well but the more i look within myself i feel that i am seeing a stranger,  in a pitiful yet interesting way. pity. a word which i avoid most of the time, trying hard to be strong and cool. but life, as i said earlier, is unpredictable. the more i try look into it i realise that i know very less about it and so i keep on looking deeper and deeper. i dont know where this search is going to end. maybe i dont work hard enough or use my sense enough that i keep falling for the wrong things. it's not like i am some kind of a pessimist, believe me i am a hard-core optimist, but all these optimism sometime gets all blurred and at that time there is no way out. everything start and end in a tight knot when all the optimism find its strong opponent and at that moment, well, i cant help myself. the purpose of my life become bleak and lame. all these years that i have putting all my blood and sweat on, they all seem to fade away and my life seem to be missing the real flavor and the real zest...where it need to be.
and now that i have vomited what has been bugging me all these while, i actually feel light and great. life is a never-ending struggle so i am not going to give up now when i am so close to what i have been working hard for so long. lets fight for it...yes!

chaos!

ok here i m again. life is unpredictable-i have figured this one out long ago...and now i can tell it clearly that i m as unpredictable as my own life.it's true that planning is very important in our life n blah blah blah...but all i know is that evertime i just go overboard and end up doing something that i didnt expect at all from myself!!!

i am not talking about big plannings but , you know, day-today-one.when a fact dawn into my head i dont take time to consult or cool ...it's just dat i end up in a conclusion and i end up following that conclusion only.sounds really uncool n messy n freaked out...yeah i m freaked out but the fact is that i find my being and my coolness among this chaos only.why is it??well i dont have a definite answer to this....m still flaoting in the organised(organised?!) chaos of my life.

I shed my inhibitions...

this is something that i have been holding on to closely for the last 2-3 years. it's an ad given by femina (believe story series)...so here it goes!!!

"I shed my inhibitions.My fears.I travelled light.I traded my stock options for a Lonely Planet.

My cell phone for a compass. My briefcase for a backpack. I took off.

I wandered in the company of tourists, travellers and a guitar as old as me. I learned that people are good. Strangers are fascinating. And that every journey reveals another. I've lost tract of time. And perhaps my job, my apartment and my fiance.

But i have my compass and i know it's pointing me in the right direction"

fantasy!!!

let the imprints of life be so strong that you always carry it wherever you go.....


somewhere,...may be in the after-life, you'll find the fine reminder of life imprinted in your soul!






........ a little bit of you in everything and everyone....


........a part of me being with you in something and someone...


Everywhere, it seems, you are there. Even when i close my eyes i can see you. All the moments has stopped and come in my arms like the sky!


In my dream, i follow some footprints that seem so real that i put step after step on it.


I flow with the sands of time, slowly and steadily, as if the fear of breaking the smooth thread of unknown tryst is there in every grain of sand.


A cool deep breath of fresh air, the flutter of lashes in the mist, the ribbon of dark starry night, the silvery disc of moon..........it seems they all are made for you.


And you...just for me!

for a start!

so many questions on my mind...i need an answer.

for the timebeing, "i m moody, messy, i get senseless" from ashley simpson's "pieces of me" applies to me. somehow i will discover myself on the way, i believe in myself that much that i will get an asnwer to my question...!

i dont want to end my life with the question 'who am i?'

i will write more soon enough.........